The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

we always hope for things that dont exist.
I'm standing under a white flag

Thursday, December 10, 2009

10 Dec 09
and i thought of you again.
i cant stand this.
10 years already,
and each year each time i think of you,
its like i 'reset'.
back to my emotional self.
its such a cool feeling,
and a crappy feeling.
cool such that you're still like that,
crappy that i'm still like this.
OH MAN.
cmon nick,
how can you stop this?
or prolong this?
stop this feeling,
this image,
or keep it.

this feeling is unimaginable.
undescribable.
maybe one day,
when all of this is over,
i will describe it for you.

i am in great conflict with myself because i cant bring myself to continue after 10 years.
but its these 10 years that made me sane,
made me feel all that i can.

maybe,
just maybe,
these years will be a test of faith.
after these 10 years and counting,
fate just might.

even so,
what are the chances?
the chances of you knowing is already less than 10%.
the chance happening in these years is diminishing.
what more about the upcoming years?

i've tried not to,
but i failed.

maybe the only solution is to face the truth.
only when i'm ready to accept the chances.

just some crap happening in my head that i'd like to share.
even though the chances of any readers understanding is close to nil.
forget it.
this is for myself to reflect on.



8:30 PM


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