The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Wednesday, January 20, 2010

20 Jan 10

im damn depressed now.
the ensemble is what, at least 1000 times better than me.
5 minutes into the combined practice,
i gave up.
imagine everyone playing,
a lonely boy placed at the back is frantically trying to decipher the notes and play in sync.
ended up that boy is totally clashing.
not like there arent other newbies like him,
compared to them he is only what, a tenth at most.
well, that boy is me.

should i give up?
did i make the wrong choice in choosing this?

there's still the road turning back.
there's still time.
only that much more time to reconsider joining.
if i'm already this bad at strings,
it'll definitely eat into my academics if i try to improve it.

it is eating into my pride,
eating into my soul.
immense humiliation.

is this god's test,
am i supposed to overcome all these impossible obstacles to come,
or am i not supposed to accept the appeal at the start.

in these 2 years,
should i face someone my own size,
or someone much much bigger.

should i carry a boulder or a rock.

are these burdens or challenges im carrying?
or am i just a loser trying to run away.