The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

we always hope for things that dont exist.
I'm standing under a white flag

Thursday, March 4, 2010

i dont know how to reciprocate. 4 Mar 10

how hard is it to sign a dragonboating form for a camp?
just because people drowned before means you shouldnt do it forever?

if someone died by a car accident infront of your house does it mean you cannot go out of your house forever?

why must you make things difficult for everyone?
why must the IN-CHARGE call YOU to TELL YOU that your son WILL BE SAFE AND WILL BE WEARING A LIFE JACKET then you will sign the form?
which OTHER PARENT does that?
WHY are you ALWAYS not happy on WHAT I DO?
WHY do i even BOTHER TO TALK TO YOU?
EVERYTIME i try to PUT MY TRUST and TALK NICELY to you i ALWAYS get PUT DOWN.
WHY AM I EVEN CRYING.

why do i really hate my father.
WHY do i GET FUCKED UP with EVERYTHING that he wants his way.

is this what i really deserve after a long long day at school?
waking up at 6am,
come home at 10pm,
sleep at 12am,
wake up 6am.

i have a cca.
i am a house comm applicant.
i already told you that i have commitments to make in school.
as a mother why are you even childishly scolding me when u are already clear that i am staying back till the usual time of 930pm.
is this really what i deserve for a long day.
am i really supposed to absorb and suck this all into myself.

how am i going to face everyone tomorrow.
i dont even want to talk anymore.

just have it your way.
i give up on everything.
yes im a gutless coward and fucking shit alright.
do whatever you want.
i dont even want to handle my life anymore.



10:35 PM


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