The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

we always hope for things that dont exist.
I'm standing under a white flag

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

28 April 10

if you dared to jump into the pool,
you should have dared to drown.

easier said than done, of course.

now im drowning in the pool and the hand to pull me up is there.
many hands.

but i gave up on myself.
i did not accept those hands of sympathy;
those hands of sly hope.

and as im struggling out of the pool myself i wonder:
should i have taken their hands, all of these would have been faster;
should i have taken their hands, i would have looked weak infront of them.

i think i still have too high a pride.
'carry yourself with pride', is it more important than 'have humility'?
what is the balance?

now the time left to think is getting less.
all i can do is to pass day by day and hope for a solution to appear infront of me.

and as i still see the hands available to pull,
im still unwilling.

eugene you once made a very good observation about me.
it still holds true.

my weaknesses?

foolish, immature, silly,
worst of all,
stubborn and proud.

if you want people to love you you must first love yourself,
if you hate yourself you cant expect anyone to like you.



9:57 PM


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