28 June 10

okay so im done with the first day of exams.
surprisingly passable considering how much i studied.
i think.

gonna blog before i start (yup, start) mugging on econs for today. at 932pm.

so i just watched this show of hopes and dreams called national treasure.
just another stupid show which relit my own mindset that hopes and dreams can be achieved
which it wont.
which means i basically set another personal timebomb for myself to explode.

well, GP tomorrow's a catch too.
it's gonna be difficult to write another essay out of the blue.
plus content. im always lacking in content and evidence.

you know,
at some point in your life, or many points,
you really want someone there for you unconditionally.
someone you can selfishly hug,
rant,
be with at anytime and any place,
and is alive.
someone which gives you the true meaning of 'i love you'
which is always, always never singly defined.
of course there's so much more.
care, concern, talk to, listen to, share burdens with, experience..
blah blah blah.

then again is the hard truths that everyone faces every once in a while.
that there's a hard and tough distance to go before you enjoy success.
and after success is another goal which you have to forsake your success to suffer again.

if im getting sick of this cycle and i have 60 more years to live,
gosh im gonna die early.
out of stress.

then again i soo love it during when people brags 'IM SO FLUNKED' and ends up with positive results.
it just makes me feel you're such a liar.
and somehow i lose my faith.
gosh is this weird or what.

its funny how you meet your classmates again and it feels foreign.
like everything's starting over.