15 July 10

so like today was a success in my emotional side.
really.
i was really really emotionally satisfied with today,
which is like a so much better feeling compared to the whole of the past few months.

apart from school which i apparently felt quite sian about.

i went to synwin with jolene,olivia,xuanming,weebian today.
and i had so much passion ignited for my violin again.
saw this tailboard which i might get (might not cause of jasmine, but wait that's for later)
and a shoulder rest definitely,
and maybe a rosin.
gonna try the pirastro rosin that i koped somewhere first.
and a violin case.
and a practice mute. just remembered.

explored synwin THROUGHLY. though jasmine told me later there's more to synwin damn D:

then we left, i went to parkway to change bus to go home.

BUT

when i dropped on parkway, i saw the 966 coming.
decided not to take it and went to buy bubble tea across the road.
COINCIDENTALLY i saw cy and she told me their pw group was at starbucks
so i went to crash and jasmine,julian,wenyuan,clarisse was there.
haha yeah so thats how i met jasmine and i told her about synwin and she told me some stuff about violins and stuff.
passion sia.

oh and i saw this vs guy in synwin who wanted to buy a violin, first time touching one.
it didnt hit me at first when i was mentally covering my ears with my hands from his screeching noise,
but i realised how much i've progressed from 7 years ago from learning the violin.
im feeling so 'in the music industry' now.

and i went home, and talked to my mom over dinner,
i realised i was so much like her and my sis so much like my dad.
me and my mom can communicate so well when im not in a rebellious mode.
i'm thankful.

and looking back on my life of feelings,
i dont regret those who tugged my heart before.
of course,
it's a sad thing.
but i'll get over it i hope.
talking to jasmineblundell is really a good thing.
you allow yourself to open up.
grateful.

and thus ends my thankful post for today.

for the free thinker who believes in god,
thank you god,
for this blessing of today,
to show me that my friends are there with me,
that my parents gave me the life i have,
that there's less to be sad/worried about.
thank you for igniting my violin passion once again.
thanks for making me smile today, deep down inside.