16 July 10

i did stuff that was supposed to be fun today.
but i guess i made some mistakes morally.

ah well, im tired.
shall be positive and optimistic,
i shall go with my mom to expo later to shop for sports stuff and maybe shoes,
if not then saturday afternoon or sunday afternoon go find a Vans to wear.

and then there's saturday practice which should be fun.

so today i went to gym cause there was lightning alert during pe.
that foot kicking thing was really fun!
quite happy when i could lift like 60kg with each foot.
hope it'll make me sprint faster.
love sprinting.
saw my class napfa results today and i got the best for shuttle run xD
k lah cause only got 7 guys.

i felt morally wrong because i chose some decisions i thought was wrong,
i played instead of talked,
and i didnt feel that good about it later on.

oh well,
i hope this will not be another fall in spirit.

shall hope for a practice mute soon so i can practice at night.

tolerate. dad.
urgh.
maybe after i grew up from my baby state or something,
i've never gained a happy moment with him.

i'm really afraid. i dont know why.
im feeling further apart from everyone else.

im still lost in the forest,
hoping the stars could give me direction when they appear at night.

i really dont want to retain.
then again,
i really feel that i cant make it.

im afraid.
of everything.