we always hope for things that dont exist.

The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Monday, July 26, 2010

26 July 10

here's my meals for today..

morning: 1 piece of bread with ham and sausage.
afternoon : 1 nasi lemak.
night: 2 slices of bread with hot milo (still eating.)

stupid stomach flu / food poisoning / whatever you are.
the vomit's extremely disgusting.
dark brown liquid with precipitate.
yeah whatever.
really disgusting to let it flow out of your mouth like a tap.
@#%@#
lucky i held it in the rest of the way.
though it came out of my ass.
!@#@!#
3 times.
then went to doctor.

i wanted to go to school.
then again when i stay at home i could (hopefully) complete econs pbl.
and bio stuff.
and chem stuff.
and maths stuff.
yeah aka study / homework.

and tomorrow i gotta go pay for the extra practice books or something.
thinking of going there to crash and buy.
maybe sit in for lessons if im still healthy.

argh getting sick is a waste of time.

second piece of bread done.
can feel better already compared to just now.
during dinner i touched some soup and instantly i felt like puking.

at this point in time,
i really want to ask myself again.
what am i doing in my life?

10:12 PM

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