The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

we always hope for things that dont exist.
I'm standing under a white flag

Monday, October 11, 2010

i dont know what to say.

sometimes i really want to,
and i try,
but i cant get it.

when so much is at stake,
i really get blinded sometimes.
maybe the stress didnt get to me,
maybe its the issue with my academics all over again,
where i cant seem to put it on top.

its the issue that hit.
it really did.
smack in the face.

i really need lots of whacks on my face.
because im blinded by my own hands,
and my own heart.

damn i hope this crumbling works.
i really do.

hope tomorrow works out.
hope this whole shit works out.




i remember this feeling in primary school.
my teacher caught me,
with my book
with the words '____ ____ is a motherfucker'.
at that point,
with a kid's mind,
i knew it was bad,
it was wrong.
but i still did it.
for the..
thrill?
fun?
acting pro?
and when i was caught,
there was really nothing to explain.
because deep down i knew it was wrong.
i acted against logic,
against the proper way of the world.

dammit.
where did i go.
i need to find myself.



11:05 PM


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