we always hope for things that dont exist.

The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Thursday, December 2, 2010

guess i have noone to blame but myself huh.

blame myself for not studying hard enough,
not getting desired grades,
not being a 100% smart, guai, nice, polite kiddo.

cant blame my parents. right?
cause im supposed to be a smart kid and excel in my studies.
cause im supposed to be a smart kid and not waste their money.
and im supposed to be honest and tell them all about my life.

for always lying to them when i was younger.
lying for stuff that totally wasnt worth it.
trust in me was lost.

but still,
i scraped through life.
i guess this is why some people lead smooth-sailing lives.
they are able to be the 100% satisfactory kid.
and i couldnt.

provided all the parents are the same.
provided they're all the same..

so what if i changed?
i cant be the honest kid in their eyes anymore.
so why bother.
why bother trying.

10:25 PM

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