we always hope for things that dont exist.

The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Friday, March 4, 2011

i stressed myself out 3 times today.

by stressed out, i meant

couldnt think, hear properly,

every part of you wants to burst into tears but you gotta hold it for the pride of males and your image.

this feeling sucks.

it sucks to be in the shitty academic skill level.

sucks to be shitty violin playing standard.

i didnt have expectations before,

i didnt believe i could do it before.

now,

im setting the barriers.

im setting the heights.

im setting the standards,

and im not going to stop till i pass my own tests.

sorry to disappoint anyone,

but i dont want to be the funny,

open,

broad-hearted nick han anymore.

the fact is that my name is nicholas,

not nick.

i've been too casual about life that i was stuck in my comfort zone.

so now im getting out.

so yup.

u can still call me nick,

but i wont be casual about my life anymore.

because i found my aims,purposes,goals.

10:29 PM

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