i need to get this off my head before i explode.

call me sensitive,

but that's all i can handle right now.

that scene replayed itself damn lot of times.

i was wrong to have taken your money in mischief.

but hey,

thats what i usually do.

plus i didnt hide it beyond the event.

plus i said sorry.

what makes you think you have every right to flare up like this when this sort of thing happens.

i already said sorry then what you wanna do.

so what if you want to fight,

so what if you're stronger.

it doesnt make your argument any more right.

winning a fight doesnt win the argument.

it actually only shows how rebut-less you are.

it was an immature statement.

i thought you knew that,

until you pushed me.

that's when you hit a nerve.

there's a limit of how much pride one should have.

being a male doesnt make you alpha in any way.

if you want to play muscles then go to the wild instead.

stop living in this society.

and now i'm reminded of my dad doing the same thing because i couldn't wake up for dinner.

if my occasional actions would cause you this much discomfort,

fine.

i'll stay away.

that's what all of you want right.

less stuff to make your life more smooth.

fine.

you all want your lives smooth as silk.

i want my life to be less rough.

fine,

the best way is to stop all communication,

stop living at home,

stop cca,

disconnect myself from the outside.

just study right.

full speed ahead,

0 distractions,

silky road to success.

and to the end you were still hogged to your single train of thought.

it's just too bad,

i think too much.

yeah,

maybe im the immature one.

the puny sensitive brat.

the same little one before CT1s who acted all distant because everyone showed concern with a hint of displeasure.

solution on my side:

be more open minded.

until that happens,

ill shut the fuck up and stay the fuck out of your way.

good night and good bye.

i guess the moral here is that nobody is perfect, people make mistakes.

so this will be my mistake.

and dont expect to draw your own line and make a big hooha about it when i cross your self-drawn line.