The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Sunday, April 3, 2011

sigh.
for years i've been told there're solutions.
years.
and yet there are no solutions.
how can anyone expect me to be optimistic and cheer up in these kind of situations.
sigh.

today was fun.
really.
i'd do anything just to experience nice and friendly adults, people, parents.
trust me, those are the most valuable things you can ever get in life.
maybe because thats what i dont have, so i dont take it for granted.
so you all shouldnt either.

sigh.
without a nice family,
everything wont fit together,
no matter what you do.

all i can do is pray for a change,
pray for a better mindset,
for a better future,
for optimism.

maybe god has more in store for me.
thats what everyone says to comfort themselves.

sigh.
i want to be the innocent, unknowing kid with best of friends that hang out forever.
为什么时间不会停留在最美好的时光呢？
maybe my 美好的时光 havent come yet.

i dont want to be a wimp and cry in my room.
but what can i do? seriously.
really rebel (like how my dad describes me) and run away from home?
skip school?
flunk grades?
really wish alot of times i could make myself feel better doing that.
but i cant; but they're my family.
but do families do this?

sigh.
right and wrong,
whats right and whats wrong.
everything they say is right and everything i do is wrong.

noone understands,
noone might ever do.

maybe one day ill really run away from all of this.
为了停止自己的痛苦而辜负朋友、家人，老师。
that day will be a very sad day for my friends, but a very relieved nickhan.

how much longer can i tahan.
tahan also no change.
i bet i grow up also will be like that.

sigh. 2012 faster come.

relative loneliness, relative poverty.

bark bark, on with my life.