The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Tuesday, July 12, 2011

okay im on the bus home from tuition again.
3.5 hrs today. satisfaction max.

anyway its been both a shitty and a good week.
just this morning on the bus i was feeling sian.
then i looked down and POOF!
a $2 note on my feet.
TEEHEE.

there's this really big concept that i need to grasp,
that if i dont manage to grasp it then i'll fail As.

it is the concept that you cannot wish for perfection at the first try.
full marks doesnt come to you once you start studying.
the aim is to take small steps of improvement at a time.
be satisfied with the small steps instead of a major disappointment in the bigger falls you're gonna have.

hoo. thought i saw jiejun on the bus. but cant be, he should be in army.
...anyway.

iwanna ipad.
i wanna store my A level stuff on it and read.
no need to bring all lecture notes when things go wrong.
having said that, i would need a scanner to scan the notes.
.. and a printer if i edited and needed to print.
.. time spent..
nah.

in all honesty, i dont like what's happening in school now.
i dont like it when people compare marks with me,
and it feels much shit worse when you're like the bottom of the class.
dont like it when mr lau teaches at bullet speed and i cant grasp no shit.
dont like how i hear undermining at every possible way.
its an agitating experience.
but i guess its a consequence of my actions,
wanting to 100% grasp whenever i want to.

but this feeling is less than what i felt before june.
because maths is easier to follow.
bio.. no.
gp.. no.
chem... t(-.-)

and stress definitely contributes to it.
i mean,
its not like i dont care when people ask me questions then i dunno how to answer.
everytime that happens,
its like a piece of shit stacks on top of me.

solution? tahan, work hard and hope for the best better.

enough rant. shall post another one to clear this up soon.

and i really dunno how to plan an effective 2 years if i want to get into my desired course.
heck, cant even plan 4 months to As.