The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Thursday, July 21, 2011

tuition today was fun sitting beside xm.
but alot mistakes with the vectors.
too many numbers stress? maybe.

emotional wounds hurt much much more than physical.
the supposedly iron king cried today,
which says alot for A levels.
its really really fucking stressing.

sigh.
i can only wish i dont kill myself with all the stress.
those non-stress people are so because they have a backup plan,
a pillar of support,
friends,
family.

sigh.
i dont know why but this sentence will always make me tear nowadays.
especially when people say it with such sincerity.
'it's gonna be okay'
'everything's gonna be fine.'

should i continue stressing myself to study at the risk of breakdown?
or should i give up and chill at the risk of no future?

'pay now enjoy later'.
what a sophisticated line.

'pay now' while assuming all else is fine,
which includes physical and mental well-being,
support from friends and family and teachers.

'enjoy later' while assuming you're satisfied with your effort (which most of the time you arent),
while considering your peers will accept you 'paying' before the 'enjoy' moment.

i guess i must start buying eyedrops if i want to get good grades. go figure.

ohey i see the road to tanz' house.
taking a new bus home today, 28.
hello.

oh and i quit twitter.
i guess that im not in the position to have time to care about others anymore.

heck, i really wanna bao already.
i need to hear voices,
i dont want to speak.