The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Tuesday, December 27, 2011

really pissed off today because of many many things.
1)lateness
2)self-salvation
3)parents.
4)personal

1)lateness.
here's my rationale from my experiences.
from a personal point of view,
if you are late, you are trying to say that you have failed in being accountable for yourself.
you have given up trying to be early, for whatever reason,
and you have less respect for the other party.
also, you can mean that you are bargaining on the 'stable' blue chip that is the other party will forgive you for it and move on.

from an outsider's point of view,
if you are late, you are seen as not respecting the other party.
you are seen as an annoyance and a hindrance if there are tasks to be done in a time limit.
you are seen as someone not trustworthy.
you are seen as someone who withdraws from the emotional bank, a reserve of trust.
(meaning to say if someone's your good friend and you two have a large reservoir of trust, if that someone continues to be late that reservoir will deplete unless there are more deposits than withdrawals. if not, sooner or later you will get fed up and good friends no more.)

so my friends who are late,
they (or you) are just making withdrawals of trust from the emotional bank and i dont believe that is the way to go.
plus furthermore,
if everyone gives up,
then the time WILL just get later and later until everything gets cancelled.
e.g. 1pm become 1.10pm, next meeting 1pm become 1.30. then 1 to 2. 1 to 4. 1 to cancel.
if that is what you like to become then continue to do so.
just dont expect me to keep waiting.
my patience is finally reaching its limit and if i dont try anything to salvage these kind of situations then i may give up on you friends too.
punctuality is after all, a virtue.

2)self-salvation

well this is about an issue a good friend of mine has.
im guessing alot of you will probably have it too at some point of time.
so this can serve as a reminder.
what is considered success in life for you?
and what are your personal goals?
for me one goal is to have good emotional bank accounts with my friends.
sorry ah learnt this term from this good book so yeah dont mind me.
they are like the batteries of friendship.

soo if you have similar goals of having stronger bonds with friends,
dont be hesitant in going to try for it if there is nothing else stopping you.
be rational also in your decisions,
dont chiong into every chance you have if you know your pocket is going to burn dry.
(which i expect mine will very soon so im planning to skip tomorrow. sorry guys.)
 
3)parents.

well simply put im still (as usual) getting sick of all the restrictions and shit.
come on la how old am i already.
what duties do i have at this point in time.
NONE.
i have the time to do anything i want.
right?
not as if im going around being a hooligan.
seriously dont understand.
need study also ask why so late.
dont need study also ask why so late.
sometimes i really just wanna 'fuck you' seriously.
and this internet offing shit.
fuck it la.
bloody nonsense.
rationale for me coming back late. "we're worried for you."
OKAY LAH I 24/7 STAY HOME ISSIT.
rationale for internet. "save electricity".
seriously.
what the fuck.
just a stupid shit la i really dont wanna care already.
ill be planning a backup incase i burst and decide not to come home.
gonna need marcus / siddharth help.

4) personal.
well..
i really dont know what to say here, honestly.
what i can say is that life is... life.
there's nothing much to change that fact,
to change life into wants or life into dreams even.
pragmatism is the key here i guess.
move on if you find yourself too much attached to your dreams and wants.

well.

on a much much brighter side i met SK S HH DC DH(HAHAHAH DH) ZF J in the afternoon and an additional house cheer HC BRYAN HOON JS APRIL GOKU... did i miss anybody out.
nice meeting them.
(Y)

now life moves on yet again,
gonna have a nice sleep.