The Fray - Absolute

Ive seen this one before, the girl she gets away
Everybody knows it but no one tries to stop it
Cause she barely even knows him but if she could see inside
Everything is quiet as she waits to tell him who she is

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

Its a kiss sits upon on her lips that waits for planes and battle ships
She wants to be a dancer and he has got a picture
On his wall and its a sailor in a new port every night
Yet man was born to trouble like sparks fly upwards innocent

Is this all we get to be absolute

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

All we are and all we want
40 years come and gone
All we are in photographs
Will never be taken

Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want you here
Quiet but Im sure there is something here
Tell me everything cause I want to hear

I'm standing under a white flag
Saturday, January 21, 2012
once you start breaking records, there's no record left to defend.

emo post coming up.

“Don't search for a man that will solve all your problems, he won't. Find one that won't let you face them alone' 

fuck this shit.

sick of trying for people.
im sick of trying to initiate things to maintain friendship.
tired of being the giving end.

dont promise what you cant give,
dont ask what you dont want,
dont ask if you are incapable of delivering.

some things just proved that these friends are no more than convenience.

maybe this is a glimpse of the real world.
a fucking self centered place.
borrowing the words of an advice from a game,
dont trust anybody but yourself.

this is not to say i didnt enjoy the 3d2n 3B chalet.
i enjoyed it to the max.
really cherish these people even though i wasnt the giving end during j2.
werewolf, swimming, hanging out, talking.
guess you could say that the most significant thing to me was the chatting with them.

then again it cant be said that even if i was the giving end things would have turned out for the better.

im ready to stop following some blogs that i shouldnt have started following in the first place,
ready to stop feeling close to certain people that i might have regretted befriending.
and once that happens,
there's no turning back.
well at least not at all easily.

yh today spoke of a concept that i could relate to.
that when you have something to fight for,
you can and will do your best to do it.
that everything you do is under a hidden motive to maintain a certain record of yourself,
to fit in society's paradigm.

but once a record is broken,
broken again,
there will be a point where you will not care about that record anymore.
that you will ignore what society feels about that record,
you will ignore how society looks at you.

so if what you are fighting for is not at all related and concerned by a certain record you keep,
why bother keeping it?


the world is self centered like this.

i cant keep my head high nor put a smile with these shitty thoughts hanging in my head,
but i always can fall asleep so i guess its a blessing.