[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Oooooh-
Put your loving hand out, baby
I'm beggin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Ridin high, when I was king
Played it hard and fast, cause I had everything
Walked away, won me then
But easy come and easy go
And it would end

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]
I need you, (yeeah) to understand
Tried so hard
To be your man
The kind of man you want in the end
Only then can I begin to live again

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
An empty shell
I used to be
Shadow of my life
Was hangin over me

A broken man
Without a throne
Won't even stand the devils dance
To win my soul

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]
I'm fighting hard
To hold my own
No, I just can't make it
All alone

I'm holdin on
I can't fall back
Now that big brass ring
Is a shade of black

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Saturday, January 21, 2012
once you start breaking records, there's no record left to defend.

emo post coming up.

“Don't search for a man that will solve all your problems, he won't. Find one that won't let you face them alone' 

fuck this shit.

sick of trying for people.
im sick of trying to initiate things to maintain friendship.
tired of being the giving end.

dont promise what you cant give,
dont ask what you dont want,
dont ask if you are incapable of delivering.

some things just proved that these friends are no more than convenience.

maybe this is a glimpse of the real world.
a fucking self centered place.
borrowing the words of an advice from a game,
dont trust anybody but yourself.

this is not to say i didnt enjoy the 3d2n 3B chalet.
i enjoyed it to the max.
really cherish these people even though i wasnt the giving end during j2.
werewolf, swimming, hanging out, talking.
guess you could say that the most significant thing to me was the chatting with them.

then again it cant be said that even if i was the giving end things would have turned out for the better.

im ready to stop following some blogs that i shouldnt have started following in the first place,
ready to stop feeling close to certain people that i might have regretted befriending.
and once that happens,
there's no turning back.
well at least not at all easily.

yh today spoke of a concept that i could relate to.
that when you have something to fight for,
you can and will do your best to do it.
that everything you do is under a hidden motive to maintain a certain record of yourself,
to fit in society's paradigm.

but once a record is broken,
broken again,
there will be a point where you will not care about that record anymore.
that you will ignore what society feels about that record,
you will ignore how society looks at you.

so if what you are fighting for is not at all related and concerned by a certain record you keep,
why bother keeping it?


the world is self centered like this.

i cant keep my head high nor put a smile with these shitty thoughts hanging in my head,
but i always can fall asleep so i guess its a blessing.